I thought it might be time to write something witty or light but my heart is full and I just can not "go there". So here is some of what is going on in my heart.
Four of the blogs that I normally read--are taking blogging breaks. Two others are going through a really rough time.
I was over reading some really precious posts on-- To Know Him and Holy Experience. Please go read them if you have time.
I am hurting for my sisters. My heart is full and tender. I love them.
I find lately that my heart is really tender. I am almost an embarrassment to myself as I listen to the things people are talking about and I so want to heal their hearts. I want to hold their hearts in my hands and not let anymore hurt in. My heart hurts for them and my eyes well with tears and I just want to help. And so I pray.
A few weeks ago someone asked me why I seemed to care so much about what people were going through. Why did I feel like I needed to be involved in the lives of people I knew. Why not just mind my own business?
At first I was hurt and then I got mad.
Mind my own business when one of my family is hurting?
I don't think so!
Do we have a problem jumping in when our blood sisters and brothers are going through a rough time. We get involved--ask if there is something we can do to help. And, if they aren't doing what they should be doing--we might even get "in their face". They are our family--they are part of us.
Why do we think that our spiritual blood connected family should be any different.
If my Father came to me and said, "Sharon your sister is really hurting. She is not going to tell anyone because she does not want to be an inconvenience. Would you please go and love on her for me?"
You better believe I am going to jump up and go!
And you know what? He is not going to send me out unprepared.
He promised to shed abroad His love in my heart. He fills me with love, so that my heart is tender-and when it is squeezed by the hurt of others--love comes out.
And, I do unto others as I would want them to do for me.
Am I doing it for pay back at some time?
I read this on Holy Experience and it really explains it all. If you get a little extra time-- go read the full post.
Lord, in the end, love is all there is. What curtain can I sweep back today, to reach past that which distances us, and touch someone? I want to grow into skin like Yours.Dear God to have skin like Yours! Skin that is sensitive and tender. When did you ever see someone hurting and turn your back like you didn't notice? Never! And I want to be like my Daddy. I want to talk like you, live like you, love like you, hurt like you. I want to be You.
When others see me-- I want them to see You. Dear God keeping loving through me. I give you this vessel to love through-- even when others reject it as not good enough. You are good enough and they rejected you--why would I think I should be treated any differently. I want to love as deeply as you loved me--unconditionally.