So You Wanna Go Back?

I wrote this back in May of '07.
If God had told me I would be where I am now... in '09....I would have been both thrilled and terrified. I have learned much on this journey.....a journey that is not finished yet.
I am posting this again because it was a good reminder for me. A reminder that I DON'T want to go back. A reminder that I have come so far....to far to give up now.
Yesterday was rough. Rough enough to make me look back over my shoulder.
Good thing I was not looking at Sodom and Gomorrah. :)
I know He is faithful to see this journey through to completion. \o/
I am going to leave the comments.....because there are a few of you still walking with me that were here back then. It was kind of like a great big hug when I realized how long ya'll had been around. He has given me some great sisters for this journey.

There is a verse in Hebrews that has stood over me in the last years like a giant wave waiting to crash over my head and send me spinning. I am drawn to this verse almost like a security blanket. Yes. It comforts me and makes me breathe a little deeper. What's that verse?
Hebrews 11: 13-16. O.K, not verse--verses.

All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth.
People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. Instead, they were longing for a better country---a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them.

I loved studying the life of Abraham with Beth Moore. I loved the way God called him to leave all that was the life he had known. Sometimes I wish he had been a woman because then we would have gotten a little more of the emotional side of the journey down on paper. But, even though we did not--I know it must have been a little emotionally unsettling. But--he did it. He left what he knew and followed God on a path that he could not see and in human terms did not make sense.
For years I have felt like I have been on this path. Going places in my heart and mind that made people look at me a little funny when I spoke of what God was telling me and showing me. But--that was O.K, because out of every dozen people I got close enough to tell--He would send one who was willing to listen to my hearts thoughts and "Go There" with me.
(Tracy you know you are one)
It has been a great journey moving from glory to glory. I love thinking that as the Lord's eyes swept to and fro across the face of the earth He had to stop on me because He saw a heart that was different. {That and I was waving my hand and screaming , "ooo, 000, pick me!"}
He saw a heart that was yearning for something more----HIM!
So, now we are out in the middle of the dessert and I look around and I say, Where God? Where do you want us to go? You said go, and we did. Now, were is the land you have prepared for those who love you and are walking according to your plan?
Now the true faith walk begins. That walk for me looks a little different than Abraham. He walked--I have been asked to sit and wait. Sounds easy? Try excruciating.
Now I know in Hebrews all of these people who walked the walk of faith--they could have looked back and gone back.
That is the part of the verse I love the most. God would have let them go back. Back to their old homeland and it's captivity. But they choose to move on and look at the reward they are being blessed with.
Have you ever thought that their rewards in heaven have still not stopped piling up because we are still witnessing their lives and gaining strength because of their testimony?
How incredible is that?
So when I remember that my life is no longer my own------I know, I can not turn back.
The picture at the top is of my old house being demolished in December '06.
We thought God was going to have us rebuild on the same site and now God has told us to move on. Where, we don't know. For this problem solver-- the biggest battle has been sitting and waiting.
But I am convinced that I will see the the victory and glory of MY LORD in the land of the living.
Because I will stand in faith, God will NOT be ashamed to be called--- Sharon's God.

(Back to '09 -And not we did not know at the time of this post that we would be selling all to move to North Carolina. Or that we would still not be sure of what or where God is leading us. But I do know this....I am NOT going back. Onward and upward!)