Tuesday, March 27, 2007
My third post today!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Be Warned it is not pretty!
First let me say--I don't want to cause anyone to stumble. So------if your not in a secure spot-------warning-----i'm about to release some pressure. Here goes, better back up because this has been building for awhile. And for those of you who just knew I was perfect--i'm about to prove you wrong!
First---how much is enough? I give up! Uncle! You got me! What do I need to say to make it stop?
First the storm--and my house that was left broken.
Next--it took forever to get it taken down and all the mess with permits.
The neighbor who thought he could stop the whole process by making us tear down our shed and move it 20 feet. You don't even want to know how long i had to process that one with God.
Then all the problems with our son--having my guts ripped out and trying to keep moving.
Gaining back 12 of the pounds I had lost--because i didn't let God help me handle the stress.
Having to the ask our son to move out. Can't even go there.
The well guy who got us into a huge mess and then told us he could not handle the problem.
The next 3 big well guys who told us they could not handle the problem.
Problems with people at church. (Now resolved but part of the problem)
Too much on my plate-and no one willing to take some.
This morning the septic pipe on our trailer broke ----so I went to try and find a new one. The first place I went did not have one. When i was getting ready to leave a woman stop ed me, asking me if I would be willing to buy some candy-I told her no thank you but gave her some money-she said God will bless you. Then trying not to hit her i backed up straight into a pole that could not be seen. I broke my back light and scratched my paint.
Then had to go to two more places before i found the part we needed. Only to get home and find out that it was the wrong part and my hubby wanted me to go to Hammond (half hour away) to get a new part. I lost it.
Then my darling husband asked if I wanted Him to go and get me some ice cream or better yet a pack of cigarette's. Now I know he was joking but that is how bad it was. I used to smoke and in the past when things got bad that is where I would go.
Now I am supposed to be getting ready for group tomorrow and i am a mess.
And I am sooooooo angry.
How much is enough?
My husband said evidently not yet.
He has so much on his plate running a business and all.
And the sump pump that is draining the water out of the hole--it quit working this morning.
Yes, i know I should be strong. And I have been. But.......................Uncle.
So just let me say this out LOUD.
SATAN YOU AND YOUR LITTLE NIMCUMPOOKS ARE NOT GOING TO WIN. THINGS MAY LOOK REAL BAD RIGHT NOW BUT MY GOD HAS NOT LEFT ME. HE PROMISED THAT HE WOULD FIGHT FOR ME. I HAVE BEEN LIVING A RIGHTEOUS LIFE. I AM NOT BEING DISCIPLINED BECAUSE OF A LIFE OF SIN. I AM NOT GOING TO CURSE GOD AND DIE. SO YOU JUST GIVE IT ALL YOU'VE GOT. MY GOD WILL MAKE YOUR TRAGEDY LOOK LIKE A BROKEN FINGER NAIL. BECAUSE IN THE END WHEN HE PULLS OUT THE BIG GUNS--AND HE WILL- YOU ARE GOING DOWN!
AND I DO MEAN THE LITERALLY!
Sorry for any of those who were innocent bystanders.
I'll be better I promise!