And if you want to move on I won't be hurt----i won't even know. :) But, what if you have been really struggling in one area that you just can't seem to get victory in-- and this is part of the answer?
This week I have learned that a repentant heart is not something we can manufacture. Go ahead and say it, I did, "I know that". But, the problem was that every time I felt guilty for doing something wrong and then asked God to forgive me--I would think that I had repented. And, although I felt bad for what I had done, it wouldn't be long and I would often go right back and do it again. The problem? I was trying to produce the repentance. But, it was of this world and it did me no good. Then during a study this week they wrote, God is the one who gives repentance. If you want it, ask Him for it. It was a light bulb moment for me. I ask Him for things all the time--but never that. Part of this thought is based on the following verse:
Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will.
2 Timothy 2:25-26
I want to please Him. I want my life to glorify Him. If it has been this simple all a long--how did I miss it. This week I started asking God , to give me a broken, repentant heart. When the Spirit speaks I want to obey the first time. I don't want to keep going back to the same attitudes and actions all the time.
Earlier this morning I was speaking to a friend and she gave me this verse, with which I will close.
Ezekiel 36:24-28-(the message)
"For here's what I'm going to do: I'm going to take you out of these countries, gather you from all over, and bring you back to your own land. I'll pour pure water over you and scrub you clean. I'll give you a new heart, put a new spirit in you. I'll remove the stone heart from your body and replace it with a heart that's God-willed, not self-willed. I'll put my Spirit in you and make it possible for you to do what I tell you and live by my commands. You'll once again live in the land I gave our ancestors. You'll be my people! And I will be your God!"
Dear God, give us a new repentant heart. And then we can ask you, "Are we there yet?".