Monday, February 5, 2007

My heart

I am writing this because this is the place to go to talk. We recently had to ask my son to leave home. Was it hard? Ever felt your heart had been ripped out and each day someone was wringing it out? I love him dearly. My heart cries out to him- but I pray he hears the call of my Father first. Someone once said we can bring about changes in people- but if it is not the Holy Spirit making the change-it will not last. I want the change to last. So Michael, I pray each day that you will be protected from Satan's schemes to destroy you. That you will know more than anything else that God loves you dearly. And after that, I pray that one day you will realize how dearly you are loved by your father and I. You take my heart with you where ever you go---please take care of it.

My head bowed down.
My knees on the ground.
My heart I hold in my hand.
It is broken Lord.
Will you hold it Lord?
No bandages will work.
It's been pulled out of my chest.
See the dark hole it has left?
I need it back you see.
Please put it back for me.
I know you know my pain.
And yet it hurts the same.
God , my baby I lift to you.
I know your heart is true.
You have his best in mind.
I pray your rest he will find.
So even if my heart is bleeding.
Even if it has to take a beating.
I'll stay on my knees for him, till my heart comes back again.


blackpurl said...

My prayers are also with Michael.
His peace, Alida

Anonymous said...

We too pray for Michael, that God will turn his heart toward Him and home.
I too have a prodigal son although he is grown now. I have hope when I think about all Ruth Graham went through with her son Franklin. Don't give up praying; where there is life there is hope.

Dee said...

((( hugs ))) to all of you with heart breaks for you. And I'll pray.

Sharon, I posted this on my blog for you - I thought I'd post it here so you'll see it (I hope that's okay):
Hi Sharon, glad you've popped by here. For me the change happened when I studied 'The Lord's Table' (link is on this blog) and began to see what the bible says about eating, our bodies and gluttony. I also learned that God gives us the Holy Spirit to help us overcome our desires and realizing that (even though I knew it as a spiritual fact, it wasn't a heart fact) made it easier for me to say 'no' to the things that I wanted but didn't need. No, I haven't obeyed always but knowing that I have someone very big on my side made it all easier. BTW, The Lord's Table study is free to do online.

Visit again! Dee

God bless!

Karen said...

I've been reading some of your earlier posts. I had no idea you'd been through this. Sometimes I look ahead and wonder how the teen years will be, but I have to take each day as it comes. How are things now? I pray that the Lord watches over your son, that he pursues him with tender but strong love that breaks through wherever it is needed.

luvmy4sons said...

Wow. A beautiful post. You are an amazing mom. I know god will be faithful. My heart broke as I read your poem. I pray your son hears God's voice!

freetofly said...

Sharon, I have a James Michael, (we call him James). He is 23 now. When he was 18 we had to give him an ultimatum. It was awful. We prayed & did everything we could to meet him without compromising what God expected us to hold as the standard. He left. I will never forget him saying "It's just so hard, Mom" he was talking about doing the right thing. He had been doing the wrong thing so long.

Anyway, we have had moments of joy since then and moments of crying out to God. We continue to love him, & I continue to declare God's word over him.

I am grateful that the same God who watched my husband & I will & does watch over our son.

My heart goes out to you, I know this is a long & painful road. Don't get weary! Love NEVER fails!

hugs & prayers,