Why I blog

A year ago yesterday-- I started blogging. I had been through a rough year and a half after the Katrina storm and some very rough family issues and I needed communication with people. We had torn down our storm damaged home and we were at the time living in a trailer on our property. We were planning to rebuild.
Because of where God was taking me I was no longer teaching womens group or children's church and I had no out put ---and I needed that.

So, my little brother said that he thought I would enjoy blogging because I sounded like
"I had something to say". Then Beth Moore started a blog and I started one
so that I could leave comments.
I found CWO and began going to different blogs to see what this was all about.
There were blogs that were about people trying to loose weight, blogs that were a social zone, blogs about family, the variety was huge.
I settled in on a few and I think today I still blog with some of those. One has been with me since I think my 3 post. I love her heart and share her battle. D--love ya girl. :)
I have had to adjust over the year. Sometimes I would get all caught up in trying to get readers. That is really not for me. Not that there is anything wrong with that--it is just not why I blog. If I am reading too many post it takes away from home time and God time and then I start to feel guilty.I don't really search blogdom any more for other blogs to read. I meet people here and there and if there is a connection--I add them to my list of subscribes. I really want to be able to read a post. Kind of like looking someone in the eye when they are talking to you--giving them your full attention. Blogging is about relationship for me.
Most of the women that I have met are sisters in Christ. I listen with my spirit to what they write. I ask God to show me what they need and how I can pray for them. Yes, I am probably a little more serious in nature and personality about blogging than some. That is not what they blog for and it is good that this blogging things meets all of our needs.
There are many I have come to love. I hurt when they hurt and I rejoice as I see that their eyes are open to the things of God. If someone asks me to pray--I do.
I think that is probably why I start to feel so close to them.
Sometimes people drift off-- and it's a little sad. Yes, I miss them. Not because I am loosing a reader but because I have come to love them.
Kind of like when someone you have grown close to moves away. I talked to another blogger about this about a week ago and she reminded me that God may have just brought them into my life for a short period. I understand.
I know that some just blog for fun. I think it is fun too.
But during this year I have also come to feel very strongly for women that I will never meet till we walk those streets of gold. I pray for you and enjoy encouraging you in this walk we are walking together.
SO--that is why I blog. (I know you were just dying to know) It is all about relationship for me.

Thank you for spending this year with me.
And for your reading enjoyment-
Below is my first post.
You will notice that I have gotten a little more talkative. ;)

I spent the morning out in the world. It amazes me that each day so many of us go out among the world and have any energy left to face our families. I spent the morning in court. Faces of so many filled with anger , sadness, despair. Voices raised when things did not go their way. It was not long before I felt the knot tightening in the pit of my stomach.
As I felt the tidal wave of humanity start to knock me over --I cried out. I did not want to be there. It was not my fault. "God help me!" And with the most amazing clarity I heard Him say "Relax, this is not about you." Immediately - my insides relaxed. Grace is amazing that way. Thank you for peace that passes understanding.