Monday, April 7, 2008

Lost.---Joy..........If found please return to-- Sharon


Maybe it is just hormonal. Maybe it is just frustration. Maybe it is God bringing me to the end of my rope. Or maybe I should say to the end of my rind since....... I'm feeling a tad like that
little sour faced critter above.
But then, I hate to say anything because then i'll be like those Israelites that have to make one more trip around the mountain.
Dear God --please not another trip around.
So if I have been a tad on the serious side--I seem to have lost my joy.
This journey had its beginning over two years ago. It will have its ending--I pray--by the end of May when God takes us to the next place we will live. Please God--a house. But if need be, yes, I will move back into the camper.
For those of ya'll who are newer to my blog--we tore our old home down two Christmases ago.
We were planning to rebuild on the same property on the river. Until we ran into some huge problems with an old artesian well that would not be capped.
That is unless we wanted to pay 90,000 dollars.

The above picture was in what was part of my backyard.
Here is the original post if you have the time to read.
So after spending 20,000 getting ready to build--we did not.
The hole was filled in and the property has been sitting right down the road waiting to be sold.
A whole nother story.
We moved into this home--thank you Jesus--and it has been nice.
Now that Paw Paw is gone- it is time for us to move on.
Problem?
We don't know where God wants us.
Keith always said he would never move while his Dad was here.
And he hated to leave his childhood home-the house we tore down.
And we really love our church--we are presently looking for a new one because God said it was time to move on.
Which way do we go, which way do we go.......???????
Honestly...beginning to panic here.
I know God has a plan. I know He is in control.
But, I do wonder if He would let me see myself through His eyes--because I am thinking this rubber band is about to pop.
Dear God help me trust you. I don't want to complain. I want to trust.
Are you speaking to my husband?
Is he hearing You?
My flesh is screaming and I am trying to keep my mouth shut.
Dear God Can You Help?
Please

(I realize that this sounds pretty desperate. I also realize that many of you may think that it is a little overboard. There are many things that I have not shared here. Things that have crushed my spirit and broken by heart. With more events to come.
I write these things because I need some serious prayer warriors to bombard heaven on our account. Honestly I just want to pass this test and let God's will be done.
If we are to move to tim-buc-too--God knows I 'll go. This journey has been long--not 40 years--but long. I don't want someone feel sorry for me. Many have it a lot worse. This is just my road right now. I need some prayer warriors.
I am confessing my sin of fear-yuck!
Just pray for us please. I know that God is up to something incredible but my flesh is weak.
Now this is all I am going to say about this till the glory breaks with the new day.
Thank you~)

23 comments:

MelanieJoy said...

Sharon,

He is tenderly caring for you too.
I was reminded this weekend that just because we don't see things happing with our physical eye that doesn't mean that he is not working. He as you know is in the future taking care of things until His timing is ready to be revealed. I know you know those things....
He knows the answers already- the when-where-how. I know too that doesn't make the waiting easier.
I've been praying and I will continue....Love you Girl.
I'll try to call soon...Thanks for your prayers for my friend LeaAnn.

Denise said...

I have a lot of reading to catch up on your posts....... I will do that tomorrow......... too busy here the past 3-4 days to even be on the computer............. Love you much and praying for you each day............

Love you much and will be back tomorrow.........

Karen said...

It is so important to be real, for when we are, well sometimes we get to know what we are really feeling ourselves sometimes (so easy to bottle it up). I will be praying for you. I can see there are lots of changes on the horizon and I do believe that the right home situation at the right time is being prepared for you. Father loves you, please don't be so hard on yourself (says she who does it so much herself), one day at a time sweet Jesus. Rest in the shelter of his wings, in the Secret Place, safe from the wagging of tongues, from the battle - for the battle belongs to the Lord. Spring is coming, spring is coming...

Halfmoon Girl said...

Thanks for spilling your guts, Sharon. It allows us to hold you up in prayer. May you find soon find rest in our Saviour and discover where He is leading you. LOTS of changes- can be very unsettling- doesn't mean you are weak and whiny at all- means you are a human with limitations who is seeking the Lord!

Mary said...

Sharon,

Prayers are speeding toward heaven and I will ask Mom to pray for you as well. She is a Prayer Warrior, for sure.

Asking Him to touch your heart, mind and soul so you might be at peace.

Love and blessings,
Mary

Mary said...

PS. I have a little something for you on Tuesday's post. Please drop by and pick it up when you can.

Denise said...

My dear sis, I am storming the gates of heaven for you, and I will not stop. Asking God to give you huge amounts of peace during this stressful time. I love you.

Edge of Design said...

I think I know a little about not having a place to really call home after being on the road for so long and barely meeting folks before it was time to move, yet again. A person just gets weary sometimes. There are times when their head feels like it's going to explode while their gut wrenches and their heart hurts so much it's affected physically too. You know North Carolina is a beautiful place to live and there's nice, reasonably-priced home just across the road from us for sale. HINT!

Edge of Design said...

One more thing, will you come with these words on your mind and look at the picture again on my blog. This time instead of looking at my daughter sitting by the water's edge, pretend that is you as you stand by His side.
Here are the words to bring with you "And Jesus said, "Come to the water,
Stand by My side,
I know you are thristy
you won't be denied;
I felt every tear drop
When in darkness you cried,
And I strove to remind you
that for those tears I died."

Cindy Swanson said...

Sharon, I believe this is my first visit to your blog, and I came upon it to see that you're going through a really rough time. I don't blame you for lacking joy and being a bit desperate! Although I don't know you at all, I just sent up a prayer for God's peace and guidance for you. Hope something wonderful happens to you today!

Sandi said...

Sharon
Honey you have been though a lot. Even David had his days of complaining. I will be praying for you.

luvmy4sons said...

Oh, Sharon dear sister. I will most certainly add you on my list. You seem to be as much in a fearful place as my dear friend. You will now come to mind when I pray for her and I will pray for you. I pray for her a lot by the way. the fact that you WANT to pass this difficult test is already winning it. God knows your heart. I wish I could give you a hug!

Mimi's Toes said...

I will believe with you my sister that God will place you where he wants you to be. It sounds like you have really been thru a lot. You are such a positive person and you have such great faith. I know God will not let you down. There is room in my town if you want to come my way. We could start a church together...I could play the piano and lead praise and worship service and you could preach....Just a thought.

Nicki said...

You are in a lot of transitions right now! New church and new home....wow, that's a lot, it's like starting all over, which could be a good thing. I know it's hard, I can imagine it's frustrating. I'm sorry you are going through so much!! He will restore your joy.....I know mine's been a little distant today too.

CrownLaidDown said...

You know I am praying, my Sister! Hang on! Jesus your help is on His way!

Denise said...

You are a precious bundle of nerves and wonder........ I am sending an email and I am so sorry now because it will be long..it is still so crazy busy here but in the midst of all this mess here at the house and outside the house.......... My hummingbirds have returned!!!!!!!!! It is a new day........ Love you much,, and look for a long email tonight!

eph2810 said...

Oh, Sharon, I am so sorry to read that your are experiencing such trials right now. I know it is very hard to hear God when your heart is beating loader than a drum...I have been there many years ago - and ended up in the desert *sigh*...6,000 across the pond. I think I will never make it out of the desert.
I certainly will pray for your and your family.

Much love, (((hugs))) and blessings...

Deb said...

Sharon, love your heart and honesty!
Yes I am lifting you up to the throne. Looks like your onto another adventure with the Lord:)As hard as it is.. (((HUGS))) it will get better
Deb

SunnySusan said...

Hug and prayers, my friend.

Melanie said...

I can really understand where you are coming from. A little different with us- but we need to move to be closer to my step-daughter. But, how to actually just pick up and go and what to do when we get there is down right scary.

Praying for you!

Regina said...

Praying for you and yours. Thanks for sharing your heart Sharon...

freetofly said...

Sharon, you are wise indeed to know when to seek prayer, even Jesus and even Paul needed this! Heaven is surely ringing with your name being brought boldy before the throne of grace!

"Lord, hear our sister! Our sister, Sharon, and her husband Keith! Strengthen them, Lord! Lead Keith like you led Joseph when he was responsible for Our Saviour Jesus, and Mary, his mother! Lead him Father, through dreams, wisdom, divine favor and timing! Give him the success of the work of his hands. May all he puts his hands to do prosper, as you lead him. May his relationship with you flourish, as he greives the loss of his earthy parent. Each day may the path this sweet couple, this family, is to take become more and more clear, because the path of the just is as the shining sun, shining more and more unto the perfect day! Cause Sharon, Lord, to feel comforted, cherished and secure in the arms of her husband, and of you. May she pass that security on to her daughter! Thank you Father! Thank you for the rich future You are making them ready for. In Jesus Name we pray and believe! Amen!"

Andrea said...

I don't deal with stress well either. I pray that you find peace. Rest in His arms, Sharon.

xo