Monday, January 28, 2008

Locked away.............no more!


A few years ago a very good friend of my stepped off into the dark.
She knew the truth and had walked with me in it.
But one day the things that she had held at bay--swallowed her whole. I knew that she was dealing with these issues the best she could--but she could not seem to give them to God and get beyond them.
What I thought would be a little while walking in the dark--- became years.
I hurt for her. I was angry with her. I missed her.

I wrote this for her.

Into The Light

When we say hello there's no greeting with arms
No touching of cheeks
There's no bonding in depth
For the Spirit is weak
- - - -
Alone behind bars
Locked away by the past
Unable to free yourself
From regrets and satans traps
- - - -
Your jailer is tenacious
His goal to impose
The most horrendous restrictions
No lone human could appose
- - - -
For the key to your cell
Look into the Light
It holds the key to free passage
Please look out of the dark
And into the Light
- - - -
Come walk with me into the light
He'll plant roses and vines
round those bars in your life
He'll turn your dungeon of death
Into His garden of Light


During those years my friend was locked away--I fought for her. Time was spent in prayer and fasting. Many times I felt as if my heart was being crushed-so weighed down by the life she was living. Then one day God told me to stop speaking to her.
He had told me this many times before I finally listened.
You see her hurt had turned to bitterness and then deep rebellion.
Her heart was so hard. I was the only soft spot left in her life.
God needed to bring her to the end of her self.
Why am I sharing this with you?
Because some comment reading this weekend brought this event in my life to mind.
This weekend my heart was crushed as I read the things women were writing on the latest posts by Beth Moore. She asked women to anonymously tell her the things that kept them bound.
Yes, I posted something. And as I read the responses of my sisters--
my heart wept for them.
These are the same women I blog with--go to church with. They are the body.
And the body is broken and hurting.
When emotional pain is not put in the hands of our healer--it turns to anger.
And anger not dissolved my the tender mercies of our Father---- turns to depression.

Several months ago my friend came back to God. :)
God knew that I would need her to help me through a very black time in my life.
We need each other. We can help each other. But there has got to be some honesty.
Some willingness to share where we really are in life.
God has given us a great place here. We can share who we are and what we are going through with women who will pray for us. Who will love us right where we are.
NONE of us have been through anything new under the sun. I know that you may not be able to share the nitty gritty on your blog because of certain people in your life that may read. But find a woman who you feel safe with and let her love you. Let her share the love of God with you.

God needs a healthy body. God wants to make you healthy.
If you are hurting--I am sorry.
I will pray--I will love-----I promise.

21 comments:

Anonymous said...

The way you ended this post with--I promise it reminds me of a time when I was so caught up in wanting to feel loved. I knew this person loved me but I was so bound by satan's lies I couldn't feel it. It hurt so bad inside that I couldn't feel something I knew was there...it scared me too. When we ended a conversation she would always say...I love you and I would make her say "promise" her response was always the same Yes I promise. Praise God He has set me free from so many things that this is no long an issue for me.
There is a young girl in our youth group and she has gotten mixed up with this guy- that is no good! I am so scared for her right now. Then you know what I'm going through right now with my sister. You are a mighty prayer warrior and have challenged me this weekend to be bold in the issues around me. Thanks again for the call...YOS

Denise said...

Thank you for being the precious woman of God that you are my sis. It helps me so much to know I have you as a prayer warrior. Please know that I am here to pray for you always, I love you. That is a true promise sis.

luvmy4sons said...

What a blessed post. You are a beautiful sister in Christ. I am so glad your friend has returned. He will restore all things! He is the god of new beginnings. This post touched me. Thank you!

Lisa said...

This poem suits a few loved ones in my life... Thanks for sharing it with us! *Hug*

Rachel said...

Thank you so much for visiting my blog and leaving a great household tip. I really really appreciate it. I have enjoyed reading through your blog. It looks like we have a lot of common interests. I love Beth Moore's blog, but have never commented. I hope to see you again soon. xo Rachel

Mary said...

Sharon, you're a blessing to me. I've given you an award...stop over at my place and pick it up. Blessings on your day.

Nise' said...

Sharon, your post so touched my heart today as I had a similar situation as this. God severed the relationship with a fire ( 6 years ago). I had been asking Him what to do about it. This friendship has not been renewed and as much as it hurts, it's okay because God knows what is best.
Thank you for sharing your heart.

freetofly said...

What a wonderful testimony! You have mentioned Beth Moore's blog a few times. I might have to check that out.

You are such a mighty Warrior Chick, Sharon!

Take Care! Watch your six!
Maria

Mimi's Toes said...

Wow, very beautifully said. I can always count on being ministered when I go to your blog...

luvmy4sons said...

I gave you an award

Alisun@ A Brooke In The Forest said...

Very heartfelt and it moved me to tears thank you soo much for sharing from the heart. It stirs me up inside to know how compassionate you are.

Kellan said...

You have such a kind heart Sharon - such a loving heart - you are a good friend. Take care - Kellan

Jessie said...

Amen. Thank you for posting this!!

Deb said...

Sharon, you are such a prayer warrior!! I to have a friend that almost went off the deep end after her husband was killed.She is back on track now, I do not trust her yet,(drugs) but I do love her. And for a time I had to love her from a distance as you did. Thanks for your heart:)

Andrea said...

so glad to hear your friend has come home!

Sharon -- you have the biggest heart of anyone I know.

Edge of Design said...

What is the URL for Beth's blog Sharon, if you don't mind. Beautiful post today and I'm glad things worked out for your friend the way they did after all!

Mary said...

Sharon,

This is a powerful post. It's touched me in a special way. I am so thankful that God allowed our paths to cross. Please drop over to my blog and pick up a copy of the Blessing award, for you are truly a blessing to me.

Love and hugs,
Mary

Regina said...

Sharon,
This is why i love your blog so much! You just put it out there for the world and dare them to ignore it!
Thanks for sharing! You are a light in the darkness for many, continue to do what you do!
Blessings!

Denise said...

I cannot believe that I am just now getting to this post.. I had to stop and reflect on what you said.. I have counseled with a person for years and years and at one point the Lord told me that I was loose from her... It would always turn around the the things in my life that I had committed... We all have sinned and come short of the glory of God.. all of us...

One thing that the Lord had to get in my spirit that I was not a victim... I was a child of God and I had to allow Godly women to listen regardless of what I wanted to say.. It was such a hard process as we are laying our hearts out open to be hurt again... It is so important to have a buddy to talk to ... We are spirit women in human bodies.. I am thrilled that your friend came back to the Lord..... How thrilled the Father was as He saw her coming from a far off.. Great post ..... gave me pause to thank the Lord for the Godly women in my life....... I need to spend more time with them............ As for my lady friend,,,,,, she still struggles in the darkness and I am only able to watch.............. I trust God that He is busy in her life and I have stepped back to let Him take her where she needs to go in order to find Him...............

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Cahleen 何凱琳 said...

Wow, what a powerful post! I've been in similar situations, but I don't think I was anywhere near as loyal of a friend as you were. I'm glad you're in my corner!