Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Waking Up

Yesterday, I yawned and stretched and woke from a deep dream. A dream that had been going on for so long that I thought it was my real life. But like any bad dream you want to wake. And yesterday, God reached down and gently shook me awake.
He said, "Sharon wake up, you are sleeping this is not real life.
In a very groggy state I rolled over and looking into His face, took a deep breath of pure relief.
These last few weeks had begun to create a reality that was blinding me.
All the trials and temptations. Friends that were hurting and seemingly being destroyed.
And God was no where to be found. Or so it seemed. And then God said--it's time for a little reality check. A little purpose check.
Well, to me all these issues only confirmed the need to remain strong in the face of such overwhelming trials and difficult times.
And then God broke through.
He spoke to my pastor about me; who then turned around and preached a sermon on it.
The message given to my pastor--"Stop praying against my will. You are praying for her to remain strong in the face of these trials and their purpose is to make her weak."

And then the week starts and I feel so drained. I have a friend who is trying to check out, another who's husband has checked out into the world of drugs, and Bible study to prepare for. I wanted to tuck tail and run. I felt so weak.
But, instead of running I asked God to step in.
That if He did not step in I would have nothing to give.
And guess what happened? The burst of power, the overwhelming power of His presence.
Amazing grace!
And then woke up!
I realized Satan had really convinced me that this was all there was. No other world battle going on--no power waiting in Heaven to be released. No future home waiting in Heaven for me. No rewards waiting for those who choose to do His will and not their won.
I bought the lie and fell asleep.
The following words are from a song by Keith Green, that reiterate my thoughts.

Keith Green

Like a foolish dreamer
trying to build a
highway to the sky
All my hope would come tumbling down
and I never knew just why

Until today When you pulled away the clouds
that hung like curtains on my eyes
Well I've been blind
All these wasted years and I thought I was so wise
But then you took me by surprise

Like waking up from the longest
how real it seemed until your
love broke through

I've been lost in a fantasy that blinded me
until your love broke through


Kristi said...

Thank you for the song! It brings back great memories :). I look forward to reading your blog when I get some free time!


CrownLaidDown said...

He goes to great lengths to chase us down, doesn't He? I left a comment last night, but my comment got lost and it was late, so I figured that wasn't what God wanted me to write. I went to get ready for bed and read pages 36 and 37 of's for you too, I think. In fact, I had been praying about what the Lion of Judah meant. Then James MacDonald answered it. I think it was for you, too! So go pick up your book and read those two pages. I'm praying for God to continue to be Mighty in your life!
In His Joy,

Dee said...

Hi Sharon! RYC: Flax oil - I used to use it all the time but then I didn't find that it helped my skin and I just continued w/ flax seed. I have to purchase so many items and it can get quite costly. Sounds like you got yourself some nice stuff today! I went to the health food store too and got some shampoo/conditioner - I want to see if it makes a difference - stuff w/o all the chemicals. We'll see. Have a great night! (did you have a good nap? hope so!) D

Nise' said...

Thanks for checking in on my blog and sorry you did not find me in my seat! LOL. With my husband and son home this week for Spring Break, I am trying to spend more time with them.

Praying that you will be keeping your eyes, ears, heart open to those sneak attacks that Satan keeps trying to throw our way.

SunnySusan said...

Great post Sharon

I love Keith Green...saw him ages ago now in concert at Knotts Berry Farm in So California...

To God be the Glory

eph2810 said...

Yeah, the devil is crawling and searching to destroy. Our Lord is mighty and will step in when we grow weary and heavy laden. Just continue to seek His will. He will never leave you nor forsake you. You are in His grip!

Blessings to you and yours.

Karen said...

What a great blog - I came by via my friend 'Bunnygirl'. The ways of God are so contrary to the World and our understanding arent' they? Last year was one of great broken-ness for us as a family, yet if we had not endured what we did, we would not have realised how much God was with us, and the opportunities he provided and the total 180 degree he took us on. Going through it changed us, although going through it was painful. Knowing he was there, is there, through the fire and the flood - yay, that is hope!!!