
I want you to know that I wrote the last post because it is a story that has been growing in my heart and life unknown. A story that has been developing since I began blogging.
The timid step into the lives of others. Stepping forward to find some doors open and a gentle heart waiting. And at other times finding a door not yet ready to be opened and polite goodbyes were given.
The thing that has always remained on my mind was the hurt that often bound the closed door.
Having felt the huge hurt that was caused by others in the body of Christ.....my heart, now healed..........hurt for those who because of games of satan had left the church body.
There are many who have been hurt.....and still remained.....I was one.
Until the time that my body and spirit were weary and the hurt came once again.
I left the church and had no real feeling that I wanted to return.
And although we visited.....that church was no longer our home.
I knew according to scripture that I should not neglect the gathering of believers......but, I was tired. And I had had enough!
And so we spent a few months out of church....reading the Bible and praying at home.
Encouraging the believers when we could and all the while allowing Him to heal our hurts.
During this time I thought of all the women I had met here and how so many were doing the same thing. It was not such a bad life was it?
It had its ups and downs.....but we were doing alright.
Weren't we?
Most everyone would say, yes.
But I knew me and I would say that the answer was..........NO. Why?
Because besides God and my husband (and he did not know my heart) no one was holding me-the real me- accountable. There was no one who looked into my face and knew me well enough to know if I was just playing the game of righteous living.
And I know you know we can all do this.
So what is a person to do?
How do we take a step past the past hurts and become real with another?
And does it really have to be done?
For those of you that I blog with
that no longer attend church because of past hurts......I will step out on a limb and tell you that it is imperative that you rejoin the body. You know what I mean.
I have been without an eye to eye person now for 5 months. It has played havoc with my relationship with God. It allowed me to ignore and hide what God will not have. It allowed me at times to step away from my reading and fellowship. Hey, I was doing"o.k".......that is what I thought. Had there been an eye to eye person.....they would have called me on it.....just as the Spirit tried to do. But you and I both know how easy it becomes to ignore His voice when you give it a little practice.
Even when you rejoin the body you are going to have to make a choice to be real.
And you know what......He may not even use someone from that body to be your eye to eye person. It is really about be willing to be one with the body again. You can not say you love God whom you have not seen and not love the one that you can see. We will be known by our love for the brother. Yes, even the ones who hurt us.
Hey you have joined with me and you do not KNOW me. I don't know you and yet I love you.
I pray from many of you......and we have seen answered prayers. If you can believe it when I tell you...I love you.....you can reach out and believe another sister.
I have been there.....you can!
Why write all of this?
Because I would pray this year that some of you will take the step to rejoin the body.
There is a sister waiting for you.
One who sits on her couch -hands folded-waiting for the sister she has longed for.
I have spent a long time sitting on that couch wounded and weary. I have wondered if there would ever be another that I would want to trust.......you know...why bother?
God knows our hearts and its hurts.
And He will not ask us to do what we are too wounded to accomplish. Like Beth Moore says, wounded people do attract wounded people.
But could it be that your wounds healed long ago
and yet in stubbornness you are just unwilling to be obedient?
I have heard women here tell me how lonely they are. And my heart understands and hurts for them. I have spent many years there on the couch lonely.
And I am reminded that-
1 lonely woman +1 lonely woman= two women joined arm n arm
working together for God. :)
There are other women out there who will love you face to face.....just like He does.
Maybe you are in church and you still don't have a face to face person. Again I would remind you
that maybe she belongs to another body of believers. Maybe you will find her at a Bible study.....or at an in home church. Maybe you will find her doing volunteer work.
But you have to step out in faith.
We all have to have someone who knows us and who will lovingly give us a kick in our patoot when we are acting in rebellion or just being lazy.
How about you?
Do you have an eye to eye person other than your husband?
Or is there a sister in waiting out there.....one who is waiting for you?




































